Trying To Remember
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Trying To Remember You
I still recall sliding under the covers,
as I fell into sleep
with the essence of your arms
draped tenderly around me.
I can still remember dark nights,
waking from a dream
and your soul would be lying
gently next to me.
I can still remember a time
when I would wake and your name
would be dancing upon my lips.
I remember thoughts of you
as I tried to hold off the inevitable,
the rising from gentle slumber
with the suns first rays.
I can still remember a time
when long drives to work on smooth country roads
were filled with images of you,
your smile, your words, your love for me.
I can still recall the days
when my mind would drift from the conference room,
the meeting at hand,
and I would feel us dancing above the table.
I can still remember
arriving home to your words,
your essence,
your soul touching mine
in the deep hours of the night,
your love,
the joy of my love for you.
Now, my memory is only of those memories.
Now, I wake with thoughts of work,
thoughts of preparing for winter,
thoughts of dog biscuits and cat food.
Now, I walk down the stairs
without thought, without sentiment
without feeling.
Now, I drive to work and
compose shopping lists,
and contemplate little tasks to fill my day.
Now, I come home to an emptiness,
a solitude,
a sadness, a hollowness.
And, I try to remember
all those things I remember
about you.
I try to remember my love for you.
And, I do.
And, I wonder if you remember it too.
copyright 1997